FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally reached 100lbs down! I was so excited this morning when I got on the scale, I giggled! It feals great to reach this milestone!

Still Struggling....

It's been a long week..

I am still really down in the dumps and not feeling like myself....

My weight loss has really slowed down all the sudden....this last 10 lbs is coming off so slow...I am now 99lbs down and been waiting and waiting for this last lb to come off so I can be 100lbs down and the scale is just not cooperating with me....if things are still feeling the same bandwise by middle of next week, I am going to make an appt for a fill. I want to get this last 20 some lbs off of me and get to my goal weight...whatever I decide that will be...

I did a new workout Wednesday, one of the Biggest Loser workouts with Bob, and we were doing these high kicks and man oh man, I pulled a muscle in my back...so I skipped my workout yesterday because my back is really hurting...which then made me feel like I was being lazy...and it's still hurting bad today, but I don't want to skip my workout...my workouts make me feel good, and for a short time make me feel better and not so down...

I know some of you put comments on my last blog saying to be careful, that it sounded like depression. It is...I know thats what I am struggling with...but I am hoping I will just shake out of it like I usually do....I know alot of it has to do with my weight loss slowing down, and the stress we are under at our church....

Have a great weekend everyone!

down in the dumps...

I have been kind of down in the dumps lately..
and I just can't seem to shake it...
Some of the things I am upset about:
* I miss fall. We are on the western slopes of colorado and its not pretty here at all..no red or orange leaves, no cooler weather yet....I am a midwest girl and miss fall alot! It's my favorite season..I miss pumpkin patches and apple orchards...
* My job is very stressful right now, I HATE working from home...
* Things at the church are not any better..in fact just keep getting worse and worse...and I know this by far is the biggest thing affecting me..

I just start crying...and sometimes I have a hard time stopping..
I am getting headaches from the stress. and just feel so down...
Exercise helps...but even after an hour or two that high wears off...
I really don't know what to do...

Giving up on zumba......at least for awhile...

Happy Friday everyone!

It's been awhile, and I am sorry about that...life has been hectic crazy..I am almost caught up on reading everyones though, sounds like last weekend was a blast!

Bandwise, I am back down to what I was before my vacation, actually I am lower than my previous low. Only 2 more to go to hit 100lbs down. My next fill appt is not until the end of November, I may move that up, going to give it another week or so...but I can take huge bites of things, I can eat bread with no problem...but my appetite is staying in check...

Now I have been doing Zumba faithfully, along with other exercise, but mostly zumba for like 7 months now. It's getting to where I can do it and not feel like I have really worked out. I sweat and I know I am burning calories...but I just dont feel like it's giving me what it used to. I have started doing Tae Bo advance live dvd. OH MY GOSH! It totally kicks my butt! So...going to focus on doing that and my elliptical for awhile to change up my exercise routine...

Have a great day!

Back from vacation....ready for another one!

I have been away from blogging for almost 2 weeks. We were on vacation from work and some of my husbands family came to stay with us for a week. It had been 2 years since we had seen them...and it was a blast having them here! My girls have missed their Grandma and Grandpa alot! So it was great seeing them reconnect. And I get along with my inlaws, in fact I am closer to my mother in law then my own mom. They had lots of good things to say about my weight loss, so that was nice!

We basically just showed them around Colorado..the mountains and Black Canyon, etc. We stayed up late at night talking and playing card games. It was a relaxing, peaceful week and a half. I loved every minute of it, and it was really hard to say goodbye when they left.

Ok, about how I did band wise. I took a week off. It is the 1st time since I have been banded that I didnt weigh every day, obsess about what I was eating, and work out. I had ice cream for the 1st time since I have been banded. As a result on yesterday when I stepped on the scale I wasn't too happy...for the 1st time I had gained weight. But already have a couple of them gone, and in a couple days I will be back down to where I was, so I am not too mad. I had a great vacation, and I refuse to have regrets. This is not a diet, but instead a lifestyle and if I want to let go one week out of almost a whole year, well then I can't turn around and beat myself up over it.

I have lots of blogs to read to catch up, but I hope you are all doing great!

I will close it by sharing some pictures from my vacation.

My new outfit

I had a nice long weekend. We were busy most of it cleaning and getting our house ready for company. My hubby's mom, his stepdad, his sister and her husband are coming to stay with us for a week. It will be great to see them, it's been almost 2 years! My girls have missed their Grandma so much..and since my family doesn't have anything to do with us, all they have is his family.

Here is a picture of my my hubby took Sunday before church, it's my new skirt I bought...I love it! I see pictures of this like me and I can't hardly believe it's me...and it also makes me wanna keep going, and losing! I am so close to 100lbs down now...I love my band!

My Dr appt today

Today I had my Dr appt. I haven't seen my Dr in 2 months...and I was anxious for a fill.

So, first off they weighed me, down 18lbs in the 2 months since I have been there. So that was cool! It's been a really great 2 months for me...I know it won't last, but I am enjoying it!

So the Dr walks in the room and does a double take, and says "you are just disappearing on me". That was sooo cool to hear. He told me good job on the weight loss, and asked why I wanted a fill, since I was losing so well. I said I am following the band rules, but my hunger has increased the last couple of weeks. He said, well you have lost 6 lbs every month for 3 months in a row...so ok, I will give you one. Well, he was confused, it's only been 2 months since I have been there, so I have lost 9lbs a month for 2 months...but I wasn't going to correct him since that would have probably meant no fill...So I hopped up on the table and he gave me .5 of a fill. And boy, restriction! I felt it right away as I was drinking my water, I took a healthy swig and it went down so slow I was afraid it wasn't going to go down...and he watches too to see if he needs to remove any, and I didn't want any out....I got it down!
So I am doing liquids today...and probably liquids and mushies tomorrow. My next appt is in 3 months, the Tuesday before Thanksgiving...I have mixed feelings about that...but I am going to keep it. It will keep me on track for Turkey day!

The more I lose, the more hungry I am to lose, if that makes sense....I just keep pushing myself to keep that scale moving down..I know if I stop, or take a week or two off, I will lose my momentum and it will be harder to get it going again. I want to get this weight off of me and get to my goal. Which I did ask my Dr about today, my goal weight. He got out his little chart and said 146lbs for my height would be the high end of a good weight for me. He said he would be happy to see me at 150, 146 would be great, and 140 would be in the middle of my weight range. So, on here my 1st goal is 160, I always knew I would want to go lower than that. So I think my ultimate goal will be 146...but I think I would be happy with 155. So...I guess I will just take it a day at a time, and see how I feel as I get down there....

Happy Thursday Everyone!