Oops, I just realized I passed by my 6month banded mark

I just realized that it's been a little over 6 months since I got my band...I am just plugging away day to day, and totally blew right by my bandiversary without even noticing, until I read Kristen's 6 month blog and she got banded right after me...

So, lets see...6 months ago I got banded. Would I do it again? You bet! 100% yes! I am down 63lbs..and while I wish that could be a higher number...I am happy to have 63lbs gone forever! Every day I feel better, stronger, more confident...and in control.

What has changed:
* I am working out 5x a week....and I Love exercise! Yesterday for example I did 30 min high intensity cardio biggest loser workout, followed by 20 min workout with weights, followed by 10 min ab workout. Then last night I went on a bike ride for 1 hour. I wouldn't have lasted 10 min doing any of that 6 months ago.
* I can cross my legs!
* I no longer have to shop in the plus side of the store!
* I feel better about myself, I am more confident, I am not hiding as much as I used to
* I no longer run or hide when I see a camera
* I no longer worry about fitting into booths or seats

What I want to happen in the next 6 months:
* I want to lose the rest of my weight that I want to lose
* I want to continue to workout and get some of this flab firmed up
* I want to get a 2nd tattoo
* I want to try on a bikini..and look good in it!
* I want to try to ride a roller coaster and not worry about fitting in the seat
* Once I am at my goal weight...I want to go on a big shopping trip and buy myself a bunch of clothes!

I love love love my band! Getting banded was one of the best decisions I have ever made!

Great weekend..and some NSV's and a SV

I will start off by telling you that my Dr appt for my fill on Thursday went really well. When the Dr walked in the room, he really reacted to how I looked. He said he could really see huge changes in my face and figure..he really complimented me and said I was doing a great job. He gave me 1cc fill and said he thinks that should put me close to my sweet spot....I don't know if I am there yet, since it's only been a couple of days, but I am noticing I am requiring less to get full, and staying full longer so far.

On Saturday, my family went shopping to get some new summer clothes. I absolutely am getting to a desperate situation in my closet. I am down to 2 pr pants...I really have no shirts except tshirts that fit, and those are getting to big to continue to wear, and I have one dress. I couldn't afford to get much, but got a few things. And everything I tried on fit...and was normal sized, no more plus sizes for me!!! I got 2 cute summer dresses in size XL. I got a 3 new shirts, 1 size L and 2 in XL. I just can't hardly believe I am shopping on the normal side of the store and fitting into the clothes. I didn't buy any pants...I just didn't want to spend what they cost at Kohls for pants, rather go to walmart to buy cheap ones since they hopefully won't fit long. I just can't afford to keep buying clothes....I don't know what I am going to do....since I live in a smaller town we don't have good thrift shops or anything like that. I need to go to some garage sales maybe...

At church Sunday, I got sooo many nice compliments about my weight loss. It feels so great that people are really noticing, and saying things.

And since my fill Thur, I am down 2lbs.....I wanna keep that scale moving down! I have 7 more lbs to lose by May 17th to reach my next goal of 70lbs down. So hoping I will reach that and reach it before May 17th!!!

I hope everyone has a great week with lots of lbs going bye bye!

my new pink bike = sore butt

Thanks so much for the kind words and support about my Grandma passing away. It's been hard..but I am taking it a day at a time...

My husband took me shopping and got me a pretty new bike. We are wanting to exercise together as a family, and thought bike riding would be a great way to do it...I absolutely love my bike, it's so pretty...but man oh man....my girls and I went on a 2.5 mile bike ride yesterday and holy moly is my butt sore. And my seat on my bike is not one of those narrow hard ones..it's a little bit wider than that and soft...so why is my butt so stinking sore? LOL...do I need to develop butt callouses??

On the lapband front..still holding steady at 61lbs down. And still not feeling much restriction. I have no problems eating bread or eating fast. I fight hard for every lb I lose...I am really hoping today my fill gets me some assistance...some restriction.

My Grandma died

I am sorry I haven't posted in awhile...

things have been pretty hard around here...

My grandma died Sunday morning. It's my dad's mom..and my dad hasn't spoken to me in over a year...I have decided not to attend the funeral, for various reasons. 1st I can't really afford it, I would have to fly and the ticket prices are crazy expensive. 2 Randy (my husband) couldn't go with me, his boss won't give him the time off, and 3 it would be awkward and weird to be there since my family doesn't talk to me.

I am grieving at home on my own....It's been hard...but I am getting thru it....

My inquiring mind (yes I am nosy) wants to know...so spill...

What is a typical day in your world?
If I could follow you awesome, pretty, skinny & successful bandsters around for a day....what would I see you eat? and drink? I'm curious...what do you eat for your meals? Snacks? Amounts? and Times?
I am hoping to gain some wisdom to help me get my scale moving consistently down......
And if you exercise...how long? how often? and what do you do?

so please...share your secrets :)

60 lbs down...finally!

I finally hit 60lbs down! I am sooo excited and happy. I stood on the scale and cried!

I am already looking ahead for my next goal....70lbs down by May 17th.

Have a great day everyone!

Random Friday Rantings....changing the outside=inside changing?

I am kinda in a funk...this post may not make much sense, but just got some stuff I need to unload...and here I go in no particular order.

First off, scale wise...why oh why is my scale again taking forever to move. I am .5 away from 60 down...and have been there for like a week now...ugh, I tell you, it's sooo frustrating when you are doing everything right and that stupid scale just won't move!!!

I have been working out on avg 5x a week. I bought Jillian Michaels Shred dvd and usually do that workout 2x a week, and then do zumba the rest of the time. For the last 2 days I have progressed to Day 2 on the Shred DVD...that thing kicks my butt. It is an intense workout..but I love it!! I feel strong when I push myself to keep going...I can't believe how much I love to work out now..when before I hated it.

I feel myself changing...on the inside, as I am changing my outside. It's kind of scary...does anyone feel/experience this? I find myself more vocal. More intense. My moods are louder, if that makes sense. There are positive aspects to it, I am more confident...but I am usually such a people pleaser, and as I am losing weight, I am finding myself wanting to please me first...and that is totally not me. And at times it scares me. I have for so long always tried to please others, even if it meant doing things I didn't want to do, or changing things I didn't want to change...and lately my attitude has been, if you don't like it, I don't care. Oh my gosh, just typing that makes me feel guilty. These big mood swings..and changes in me....are really kind of freaking me out. I am afraid of who I am becoming...I don't want be a mean selfish person..but I do think I need to think of myself every once in awhile, I sure hope I can learn to balance all of this.

I am also finding myself evaluating things more as I lose more weight. I used to spend so much time consuming my thoughts with diets to try, counting calories, or stuffing my face, that I didn't have much time to think about anything else. and don't get me wrong, I still find myself thinking about how much I have eaten, did I workout, what will the scale show tomorrow...but it's becoming less consuming as time goes on...and I have free time to actually think about other things. Things I have stuffed deep and buried are starting to come out....and while this to can be a positive thing, it's also hard and painful. Things like the fact that I really hate my current job situation...while the job I have is not so bad, the fact that I have to work from home I hate. I am a people person...and I hate being in my home office all day every day alone. And since we have only lived here in Colorado for a year, and I am stuck at home, or working at the church, means I know no one here. I have no friends. and no real opportunity to get to know people either. Yes at the church I know people...but I can't really become friends with them, and share on a deep level, because of the position my husband holds at the church. I miss people. I miss having friends. I am really missing having a life....a normal life. I am really struggling lately with the fact that I am watched.....I never knew it would be like this. When I am out shopping, if I run into someone from the church, they are looking to see what is in my shopping cart, or how I deal with my kids in public....or how I am dressed.....at times it can just be such an overwhelming feeling....yesterday I cried all day long....

Well I want to end on a positive note. So, today is Friday! Thank God. I get off at 5, then get to spend the night at home with my family, and I am excited for that. I WILL get that .5 off this weekend, hit 60 lbs down, and start working towards my next goal of 70lbs down. For my reward when I hit 60lbs down I am treating myself to a tanning package...good bye white pasty skin :) Have a great weekend everyone!