Back from vacation....ready for another one!

I have been away from blogging for almost 2 weeks. We were on vacation from work and some of my husbands family came to stay with us for a week. It had been 2 years since we had seen them...and it was a blast having them here! My girls have missed their Grandma and Grandpa alot! So it was great seeing them reconnect. And I get along with my inlaws, in fact I am closer to my mother in law then my own mom. They had lots of good things to say about my weight loss, so that was nice!

We basically just showed them around Colorado..the mountains and Black Canyon, etc. We stayed up late at night talking and playing card games. It was a relaxing, peaceful week and a half. I loved every minute of it, and it was really hard to say goodbye when they left.

Ok, about how I did band wise. I took a week off. It is the 1st time since I have been banded that I didnt weigh every day, obsess about what I was eating, and work out. I had ice cream for the 1st time since I have been banded. As a result on yesterday when I stepped on the scale I wasn't too happy...for the 1st time I had gained weight. But already have a couple of them gone, and in a couple days I will be back down to where I was, so I am not too mad. I had a great vacation, and I refuse to have regrets. This is not a diet, but instead a lifestyle and if I want to let go one week out of almost a whole year, well then I can't turn around and beat myself up over it.

I have lots of blogs to read to catch up, but I hope you are all doing great!

I will close it by sharing some pictures from my vacation.

My new outfit

I had a nice long weekend. We were busy most of it cleaning and getting our house ready for company. My hubby's mom, his stepdad, his sister and her husband are coming to stay with us for a week. It will be great to see them, it's been almost 2 years! My girls have missed their Grandma so much..and since my family doesn't have anything to do with us, all they have is his family.

Here is a picture of my my hubby took Sunday before church, it's my new skirt I bought...I love it! I see pictures of this like me and I can't hardly believe it's me...and it also makes me wanna keep going, and losing! I am so close to 100lbs down now...I love my band!

My Dr appt today

Today I had my Dr appt. I haven't seen my Dr in 2 months...and I was anxious for a fill.

So, first off they weighed me, down 18lbs in the 2 months since I have been there. So that was cool! It's been a really great 2 months for me...I know it won't last, but I am enjoying it!

So the Dr walks in the room and does a double take, and says "you are just disappearing on me". That was sooo cool to hear. He told me good job on the weight loss, and asked why I wanted a fill, since I was losing so well. I said I am following the band rules, but my hunger has increased the last couple of weeks. He said, well you have lost 6 lbs every month for 3 months in a row...so ok, I will give you one. Well, he was confused, it's only been 2 months since I have been there, so I have lost 9lbs a month for 2 months...but I wasn't going to correct him since that would have probably meant no fill...So I hopped up on the table and he gave me .5 of a fill. And boy, restriction! I felt it right away as I was drinking my water, I took a healthy swig and it went down so slow I was afraid it wasn't going to go down...and he watches too to see if he needs to remove any, and I didn't want any out....I got it down!
So I am doing liquids today...and probably liquids and mushies tomorrow. My next appt is in 3 months, the Tuesday before Thanksgiving...I have mixed feelings about that...but I am going to keep it. It will keep me on track for Turkey day!

The more I lose, the more hungry I am to lose, if that makes sense....I just keep pushing myself to keep that scale moving down..I know if I stop, or take a week or two off, I will lose my momentum and it will be harder to get it going again. I want to get this weight off of me and get to my goal. Which I did ask my Dr about today, my goal weight. He got out his little chart and said 146lbs for my height would be the high end of a good weight for me. He said he would be happy to see me at 150, 146 would be great, and 140 would be in the middle of my weight range. So, on here my 1st goal is 160, I always knew I would want to go lower than that. So I think my ultimate goal will be 146...but I think I would be happy with 155. So...I guess I will just take it a day at a time, and see how I feel as I get down there....

Happy Thursday Everyone!

Sorry I'm not sorry

I am stealing this idea from a couple of others that did it

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I have now made myself a priority. That means I will make time to work out 5-6x a week. Because it's important to me. Because for years I did for others, and never did for myself. I put my needs aside constantly to meet other peoples needs. Not anymore! I will take 30min to 1 hour 5-6x a week to work out. I don't care if that makes us late to something, or if you have to wait on me.

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I don't care that I got a tattoo. I don't care that the church does not like it. I don't care that they don't want me to get another one. I like tattoos. I love the one I got, and I want another, and possibly another one...and who knows maybe another one. It looks good. It makes me feel good when I see it. And it has meaning to me. There is NOTHING wrong with getting one and/or having one. YOU have an issue with it,not me. It was not a sin. I did not cause anyone teenagers in our ministry to rebel, most don't even know I got it. Most don't care. Most care about who I am and whats inside of me, rather than whats on the outside...which is what matters anyway, right?

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I am not the same person I was 96lbs ago. I am standing up for myself now. I am not going to be a doormat any longer. I will voice my opinions, even if they are different than yours. I am an adult, and capable of having a mind of my own, a voice of my own and an opinion of my own. I understand I have to be a good example to teens, and I am. They love me. I am spending countless hours ministering to them, making a difference in their life...I don't do it the same way you do, but I am doing it my way. And it's working. So quit trying to get us to do everything your way.

Sorry I'm not sorry!

My family. I found out 2 nights ago when My grandma died my dad got a TON of money. That was encouraged to be shared among his kids. I have not seen a penny. not one. In fact when I asked about the will, I was told by my dad, there was no $ left it was all spent on healthcare. I was lied to. They don't speak to me because I moved away, and made my own choices and decisions, and didn't run to them for advice and help in my marriage, or with my kids. They wanted me to continue to do things their way, with their help. I am an adult. When you get married, you are supposed to make decisions with your husband, not your parents. But because I did it that way, you don't talk to me? you don't talk to your kids? and now you lie to me. We could use the money...we need the money. But don't worry, I won't come begging. You want it, you can have it.

Sorry I'm not sorry.

Oh man, this feels good...I think I could go on and on...but I better stop and call it a night.

95lbs down!

Today I weighed 183!

So I am officially now 95lbs down!

My next short term goal is 100lbs down by Sept 13th!

I had an amazing weekend...I hope everyone else did too!

"Your so tiny" those words were like magic to my ears!

I had a great NSV last night.

Those that follow my blog know that my husband is a youth pastor. We had 3 of our former students from our youth group in IL drive here this weekend to spend the weekend with us. We are close to them, we were their leaders from the time they were in 7th grade, till their senior year..and they have been out of high school now for a couple of years.

So anyway, they got here and when I walked into the room to greet them, theirs jaws dropped. And one shouted out "Susie your so tiny now"...I could of died right there of happiness. And one of the others picked me up in a bear hug and said I looked amazing!

I am looking forward to a great weekend with them! and hopefully, the scale will keep moving downward this weekend. I want to weigh 183 by Monday, so thats 2 more lbs to lose!

Have a great weekend everyone!

I finally beat my plateau!

It took me almost 2 weeks...but finally the scaled moved again in the positive direction!

It took me upping my workouts and measuring my food again and following the band rules strictly!

When I updated my ticker today, I noticed I have 25lbs exactly to lose to reach my 1st goal of 160. I have no idea why I picked that to be my 1st goal...I definetly want to lose more than that. How do you pick your goal weight?

I am going to ask my Dr at my next appt how to pick a goal weight. I go 1 week from today, and I can't wait for a fill!

Have a great day everyone!