Friday, February 26, 2010

My Dr appt & fill yesterday

I just gotta say, I love my Dr! He is kind, listens to me and is great at passing out the compliments.

I had a fill appt yesterday, it has been 3 weeks exact since my last one. According to their scales I was down 6.8 lbs in 3 weeks...they were really happy. The Dr comes in, takes a look at my scars, and asks me how I am doing. Gets the needle in on the 1st poke and asks me how much I reply of course was "alot!". He laughed and said I will give you 1 and if your still getting hungry, come back in in 2-3 weeks. Right away, I felt the difference. I did liquids yesterday, today I am on soft food...and I am just staying full. I am sooo hoping this fill will put me at my sweet spot!

9 more lbs to go to reach my next goal, 60lbs down by 3-29-2010! and I hope I can reach it sooner.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

zumba makes me feel sexy! and other random stuff...

It's been awhile since I have has been super crazy.

I hit the 50 lbs down mark last Saturday....and that was an amazing feeling. But since that day, not any more weight loss....that is sooo frustrating. I moved my fill up...been having my tummy growl, and going to bed hungry is not a good wasn't until next week, but they let me move it up to today, so I am super excited about that, and I know that will get my scale moving again.

I am getting a tattoo next week to celebrate my 50lb loss. Nothing to big...just a tribal heart on my ankle...kinda scared, but mostly excited!

I ordered the complete Zumba series on DVD, came with hand weights that shake & everything. It is sooooo much fun! I am still learning the dances on the instructional says to learn them well before moving on...I feel so sexy whem I'm doing them...I am sure if I could watch myself while I am doing the dance moves, I would think opposite of sexy, lol...but they sure are fun! It came with a basic workout, cardio workout, live workout, ab workout, and toning workout...I can't wait to try them all. I am still doing my 30day shred DVD with Jillian's a tough workout! but man I can feel it working...I love it! and hate it at the same time!

I am frustrated about one thing thats not changing...and thats my double chin...I am losing weight everywhere, but my stupid ugly double chin! I hate it, and really wish it would go away! I am wondering how much I am going to have to lose for it to go away....

Another thing that is still frustrating me is my hair loss. It's still happening...I am on hair vitamins, zinc, plus using all the expensive shampoo/conditioner...and while its maybe a little bit better than it was...I am still loosing a handful every makes me so sick to my stomach to see the shower drain, and my comb after I comb my hair out....I would be so much happier if that would hurry up and stop! I really get stressed about it....

Thanks so much for the picture comments...and the positive comments about my 50lbs down. You ladies are amazing! Now, I need to catch up on reading some blogs! have a great day!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Woo Hoo! I reached my 50lbs down!

That's right! Today I stepped on the scale and realized I had reached 50lbs gone! forever! and my weight no longer starts with now starts with 22! 2 days ago I was 228! I got off the scale, got back on like 4x to make sure...and then called & yelled for my husband to come and see the number...standing on the scale with tears going down my face! I am 4 months out from my surgery...and down 50!

My next goal: 60lbs down, weight 218, target date 3-29-2010!

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

new picture...almost 50lbs down

I was going to wait till I was 50lbs down...

but felt like taking a new picture I am not quite 50down, but getting soooo close.

Monday, February 15, 2010

tears & snot & a happy dance in a Kohls fitting room

This might be a long's been awhile since I have had time to post.

I will start off with some NSV's.
Saturday my husband took me shopping to Kohls to buy me a couple of new outfits for Valentines day. He said he was sick of seeing me in clothes that were falling off of me :) I have not liked trying on clothes for a looooong I really wasn't looking forward to shopping. I grabbed some stuff & started trying things on. and then the happy dancing started, and the tears, and snot running everywhere. On a whim I had grabbed a pair of size 18 jeans...thinking no way would they fit...and they did. And oh my gosh, I looked good in them. My butt looked normal, instead of looking like a rhino's butt. And a shirt in 1x fit perfect, and another one in XL fit. I came out to show my husband...and could not stop smiling & crying...I know he thought I was crazy...but I was sooo happy. This means I will be able to start shopping on the normal side of the store soon...I am now in the smallest size on the "plus" side of the store. Holy Moly...I love my band! Randy (my hubby) was so proud...he bought me 2 pr pants, 3 shirts, a new purse, wallet, high heel dress shoes...and 2 bottles of perfume from Victorias secrets!
So yesterday to church I wore a new size 18 pr of dress pants, and a new button up shirt that was so pretty, and hip...and my new purse and my new shoes...and I got so many compliments! A couple of people said it was so nice to see me in clothes that fit, instead of being so huge on me and that by wearing things that fit they could really tell how much I have lost. I was walking around yesterday on cloud stinking 9!

On the scale front it's been 11 days today since my fill...and I have lost almost 6lbs during these 11 its working! I know now tho that I am not at my "sweet spot"...but I have to be getting close. My next fill is in 2 1/2 wks...and I may move it up...will wait and see how the rest of this week goes. My goal that I am working towards is losing 50lbs by Monday 2-22...which gives me a week to lose 3lbs...I am hoping I can reach that! and my reward for 50lbs down is I am getting a tattoo. I have always wanted one...and I decided when I lose 50lbs I am going to go for it...I'm a little scared cuz I know it will hurt...but I am going to do it!

On the exercise front...I have been working out now at least 5x a week consistently for 2 months now. I love it. and when I can't work out for some reason, I get pretty upset. It feels sooo good to be moving and working out...and to see my progress. I typically do some type of aerobic tape...I vary between Biggest loser workout stuff, or Taebo..or circuit training with weights. But I am so excited because I ordered Zumba workout system. It should be here in about a week..and I can't wait to get it and try it!

Have a great week everyone!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

a question about sweet spot..and about restriction

Ok ladies...I have a question.

I have had 3 fills so Dr thinks I have around 4.5cc in my band....
My last fill was last Thursday. I definetly see an improvement on my hunger level. I am just not hungry between meals like I was. and around 1 cup of food is satisfying me...but here is my question. For a couple of days now I have been craving like crazy a grilled cheese sandwich...I don't know why, but it's been driving me crazy! So today for lunch, I made myself 1/2 of a grilled cheese sandwich...and I was able to eat it, without any problems.....shouldn't I have issues getting bread down? shouldn't it have gotten stuck? does this mean I am not at my sweet spot because I can eat bread like that? I get confused on questions like this...please help :)

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

I really need to go shopping

Things are going great. My 3rd fill has started my scale moving again, and for that I am soooo happy. I have lost 3.5lbs since Thursday when I got it...and am getting close to my goal of 50lbs down by 2-22 which is 4 months since my surgery. I definetly feel restricted....I am just not hungry...and I love it. I hope it lasts....

My clothes are really getting tooooo big. I am needing some new jeans for sure...I just hate to go out and buy new clothes when I hope to not be able to wear them for long. We live in a small town, there are not any real good resale shops here...there is one, but it's not very good...but may have to visit it again and see what they have.

I also am starting to get compliments from people at my church...they are starting to notice and say things. It's a great feeling!

Have a great day!

Friday, February 5, 2010

Great Dr's appt!

My Dr appt yesterday went great! I was a little nervous stepping on the scale because as I have said in my last several posts my weight hasn't really budged in the last couple of weeks...but according to their scales I was down 9.5 lbs since my last fill 4 weeks ago. So my dr was thrilled with that...and then proceeded to say do you want a fill? I was like Heck yes, fill me up Doc! I said I lost 7 of those lbs the first couple of weeks, the last 2 weeks has been slow moving. I'm hungry and going to bed hungry. He said, well your doing your job, so it's time for the band to do it's job. He gave me my fill, and then while the needle was still in me and I was laying down, he gave me a bottle of water and had me drink to see if he needed to take any out...he said he was generous again. And like last time, I got that wonderful feeling of taking a drink and feeling it slowly trickle down...I said nope, don't take any out!! On the day of my fill, I do liquids all day, so when I went to my appt at 4 my tummy was growling pretty bad. After my fill, it had stopped completly. I got a coffee and that was supper, and I was full. And I am not hungry this morning either...I really hope this feeling lasts. I dropped a lb yesterday...hoping it will stay gone and not come back when I am back to regular eating.
Happy Friday everyone!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Fill Day! and I am soooo happy it is!

I am sooo glad today is Fill day! I am beyond ready for a weight is just not budging much....and it's so frustrating. My last fill gave me restriction.....for about a week and a half...and then it just went today, I am going to beg & plead my Dr for another generous fill...I really really wanna hit my sweet spot.
Several of you have asked how much I have in my band...I don't know. Because of all the problems I had actually getting a fill the Dr is not sure where I am at..he thinks around 5, that what he said last time. So maybe today he will take it all out and then fill me up so that I will know where I am at...and then I will let you know :)

Have a great day!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I am so mind is trying to play tricks on me

The scale is still not moving.

Sat, Sunday & yesterday I ate more. Still worked out and drank my water...but still no movement.

Today I am going back to eating my protein high mini meals. I'm not giving up...but I am very frustrated. My mind gets these nasty thoughts....things like "well, 40 lbs is about what you lost on every diet you did and then it stopped" or another one is "this band is just like every other diet, your done losing now". I refuse to listen to those thoughts! I don't wanna believe those things.....I know I am losing inches....pants I wore this past sunday to church are huge and 2 weeks ago when I wore them they fit ok, a little big but not like they were last Sunday. I just want the stupid scale to move and reflect this hard work I am doing.

I am just going to keep trudgin on. My fill is Thursday, so hoping that will help.