Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Sorry I'm not sorry

I am stealing this idea from a couple of others that did it

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I have now made myself a priority. That means I will make time to work out 5-6x a week. Because it's important to me. Because for years I did for others, and never did for myself. I put my needs aside constantly to meet other peoples needs. Not anymore! I will take 30min to 1 hour 5-6x a week to work out. I don't care if that makes us late to something, or if you have to wait on me.

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I don't care that I got a tattoo. I don't care that the church does not like it. I don't care that they don't want me to get another one. I like tattoos. I love the one I got, and I want another, and possibly another one...and who knows maybe another one. It looks good. It makes me feel good when I see it. And it has meaning to me. There is NOTHING wrong with getting one and/or having one. YOU have an issue with it,not me. It was not a sin. I did not cause anyone teenagers in our ministry to rebel, most don't even know I got it. Most don't care. Most care about who I am and whats inside of me, rather than whats on the outside...which is what matters anyway, right?

Sorry I'm not sorry!

I am not the same person I was 96lbs ago. I am standing up for myself now. I am not going to be a doormat any longer. I will voice my opinions, even if they are different than yours. I am an adult, and capable of having a mind of my own, a voice of my own and an opinion of my own. I understand I have to be a good example to teens, and I am. They love me. I am spending countless hours ministering to them, making a difference in their life...I don't do it the same way you do, but I am doing it my way. And it's working. So quit trying to get us to do everything your way.

Sorry I'm not sorry!

My family. I found out 2 nights ago when My grandma died my dad got a TON of money. That was encouraged to be shared among his kids. I have not seen a penny. not one. In fact when I asked about the will, I was told by my dad, there was no $ left it was all spent on healthcare. I was lied to. They don't speak to me because I moved away, and made my own choices and decisions, and didn't run to them for advice and help in my marriage, or with my kids. They wanted me to continue to do things their way, with their help. I am an adult. When you get married, you are supposed to make decisions with your husband, not your parents. But because I did it that way, you don't talk to me? you don't talk to your kids? and now you lie to me. We could use the money...we need the money. But don't worry, I won't come begging. You want it, you can have it.

Sorry I'm not sorry.

Oh man, this feels good...I think I could go on and on...but I better stop and call it a night.


  1. It does feel good ---- I loved doing my sorry post. I'm so sorry about your family and the hurt you must feel over that and LOVE the tattoo part - I have 7 myself!